Posted 5 days ago Comments

Just went through to check up on someone…a thought occurred to me ;

How is it that people can have a gem in their hands n just not bother about it till it is gone? Put that in the perspective of people and you pretty much understand how I’m feeling right now.

Its just downright appalling and disgusting to see people you know mistreat their loved ones right in front of your eyes and fight the conflict of being bound by the “Bro Code” ==> I believe one can pretty much see where I’m headed to now.

What would you do in a situation like this? Stand by your friend irregardless? Or risk not being able to sleep peacefully at night?

I don’t mean the typical stuff that ends relationships… I mean the things that can damage a person post it for life. I’m just downright disgusted….I’m never standing up for such people again.

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Posted 1 week ago Comments

Today was a blessing in disguise thanks to my boss… I discovered / felt that I was empowered to move on. There is hope yet for me here on this island.

Why was it I never was a student there!

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Posted 2 weeks ago Comments

In life, to me that is, there are 2 things worse than defeat ,which is in itself pretty much a big thing for us to deal with :

Disillusion and Abandonment.

I’ve been having to cope with these 2 separate things for some time now due to certain….incidents with people I know.Or knew.

Its a feeling that is like a frozen serrated blade that saws through the heart after piercing it. At least in defeat one can take pride in at least having tried.

But I HAVE tried.

I have tried time and time again to make things better. Even at the cost of my own happiness. Maybe its my zealousness in living it for others that they enjoy a better quality of life. But at some point, it became too much to bear ; especially when the ones you careD about knowingly/unknowingly hurt you.Badly.

Then it suddenly hit you. You feel like an overused rusty bicycle chain.You feel the strain of going through all that effort to ensure the spinning of the tyres. Thing is, the picture in both cases was that the bicycle (the friend) was already in an effortless motion down the hill. The bicycle chain wasn’t needed.

The split in both paths was that one bicycle crashed, the other was still on a ‘smooth’ ride downhill. I used the inverted comma, because I’m/ve (been) out of the loop for some time.

The one that crashed tried pedalling again, but the bicycle couldn’t function as it used to.No matter how much the rider tried/tries. The bicycle would never work the same again. Even if one would set his mind to it , lets be honest ; the damage was done. The damage was irreparable. The picture surrounding this relationship (friendship) is that of the cyclist trying to use this particular bike with this rusty chain…to go uphill.

As for the other? I am but a seemingly useless bicycle chain , only to be used when that person needs an additional boost in speed down that hill, or to generate some force in helping that person thru that person’s path in life…until that person gets in a state of accelaration and speed that does not require the bicycle chain.

In all of our endeavors to endear the ones we love (I do not include mutuality when I say this…It could be strictly one way)…. Have we ever bothered to ask ourselves; ” Is this really worth my time?”

At the moment ; I’m inclined to detach myself from these bicycles that have been plaguing me. This shit isn’t worth it.

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Posted 3 weeks ago Comments

Just had to go check out the profile…How is it that I’m the one suffering and she gets to enjoy moving from one onto another.

Infuriating how they’re all flaky, irresponsible and ‘unprofessional’ in their relationships.

And guys get labelled as players when they do these things.We live in a hypocritical society.

Having gotten ‘the better end’ out of all this is one thing. The quality time spent is another altogether.But the emotional stress and burden of responsibility in making all these things work…is it really worth the trauma?

So much easier to cast aside responsibility and play on feelings.But we all know it’d be a coupla millenia before I even considered doing that to  my significant other.

It doesn’t mean that there are no good guys out there….We’re probably just,at this point in time…too fearful in showering love to someone who’s gonna shove it back in our faces. Guys HAVE EMOTIONS TOO.

I think I’ve gone thru pretty stressful relationships. Pretty much where I’ve always had to be the calm one, the pillar and the go-to guy. The pressure isn’t really worth it and the lessons learnt from every individual experience are very gut wrenching too. The keys don’t fit the lock.

I think its been a pretty thankless job, and one I’m loathe to take up again anytime soon to be honest. Whats keeping me content are the constant reminders that the world is full of beautiful ladies WITH THE RIGHT CHARACTER. Sure, you can fault me for ‘checking out girls’ etc. but its not like you’re in a position to lecture me.

I think its very sad to say, but the classical sense of love has been warped,twisted and deformed into ‘playing around’. With the jokers in social media such as MTV encouraging kids that they can ‘play the game’, its becoming increasingly frustrating that being brought up with the proper attitudes towards relationships is being phased quickly into being a thing of the past.

Anyone else feel the same way?

-The disillusioned lover.

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Posted 2 months ago Comments

the anger is coming in…i just need to channel it to my studies.

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Posted 3 months ago Comments

Ever had the feeling where you’re getting somewhere but suddenly a whole lot of stuff just crops up and the progress gets stagnated?

Well thats pretty much whats going on in my camp at the moment. 

But not to worry….things/ppl are gonna be taken care of ….its just a matter of time picking them off one by one. I understand I come across as understanding , nice and always there. but apparently some people are gonna have to be made examples of.

Nobody comes,have their way with me and then go off like that taking me for granted.There is a price to pay.

the question they will have to ask themselves…when?how much?

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Posted 4 months ago Comments

this is absolutely messed up if i were to be judged based on things i haven’t done or something that i’m not in the first place.

i’m definitely not Mr.Right….so why seemingly expect me to be a billionaire when character is another thing u should be concerned about?

i noe daughters are supposed to be treated like princesses, were i a father of one i’d be of the same mind too… but this is abit unrealistic already. judging and disapproving of me as something i’m CLEARLY NOT. i don’t even get a chance to go present my case to prove things to the contrary and then i’m told its fate?

so i can just conjure up some ludicrous excuse and condemn/banish some guy that my daughter sees without even meeting the guy proper? I did not even intend on meeting you THIS soon,sir…. and i don’t believe its my fault either that i have to clear up this mess.

its ppl like you who make life for a responsible guy like me hell to live in.you doubt my abilities, you’ll come to regret that one day.

no one passes judgement on me,my family, my ethnicity or religious issues without knowing me. you’ll come to understand this. i swear.

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Posted 7 months ago Comments

Sick of seeing the acting, how superficial things can be….or how ppl can be so obnoxious when it comes down to how things pan out.

Taking a few steps back for my own good.So pardon me if I don’t come across as interested.

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Posted 7 months ago Comments

Some Irritating observations I gotta highlight and get off my chest since I’m goin thru mental insomnia…..

My keeping things in confidence on behalf of another on trust does not allow to to pry their secret from me. My word is my bond,and that don’t come cheap.

I know you may have some confidential things that you’d wanna keep from me.Thats fine really, totally respect that =)…..But parading the fact that you do have some confidential things you’d wanna keep from me every 5 mins is ridiculous ; and I mean that as an understatement.

I appreciate someone who gets to the point and is not too blunt about things.Please, don’t be afraid to say no instead of bringing me out on a joy ride.

If you think I do things for free….Let me rephrase it this way…. I appear to do things for free ; you’d still owe me in some way.

I don’t do drama, so don’t envision me as the supporting cast.

Sure, I may like her. I didn’t say i loved her. So forget bout parading misleading facts.

I don’t do the entertaining just because I’ve nothing to do.I just thought you needed cheering up. But clearly if you don’t I’ll just bring the smiles to someone else.

Ok I feel slightly better now.

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Posted 8 months ago Comments

drained…and it gets better from monday onwards.priority is given unto unknown territory above what I already know.

tried letting them into this, but I gotta leave them behind.This is but a truly lonely path.

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